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carter hilton

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a couple of cans short of a six pack, apparantly. but i think im just your average joe addicted to speed.....velocity that is, not the drug!
July 11

ill be out of here soon

london. a city that is world famous. even if you dont know where exactly it is you must have herd of it, even if your from some third world litter clogged, disease breading cesspool back ally ..... but that could be any street in london itself i guess.

Today, not unlike any other day in this shit hole, has shown me that getting out of here is by far the best thing to do. Simple things people take for granted in Australia and what I though any developed country like sending a letter wouldn’t be that hard. But yet again after having to chase four missing packages over the last 12 months thanks to the pathetic postal service here, just the act of sending a letter is impossible. As soon I walk in the door people are sending me to the wrong service desks, then when I get to the right one and make the vegetable behind the counter understand I just want an express letter to A .U. S .T. R. A. L. I. A. the stupid fuck tells me ill have to rejoin the queue, which was fucking long, after I fill out the letter. I was pissed off by then but when I found there was no pen in the whole place amongst the broken and dirty furniture I left screaming to the staff they could go fuck them selves.

To calm down I decided to go shop for food instead. I tried this yesterday at the largest food chain nearby, Morrisons. Any shop here has very few choices at the best of times, you get the budget version and the average version. No multi brands of stuff here.

Yesterday half the shelves were empty.

Today, the same shelves are empty.

The decision has to be made weather to catch two buses to the next shopping centre or live off dirty fried chicken(available from the corner shop) for the next week or stab the nearest person in a berserk rage and have my food brought to me three times a day while behind bars…..

At this point I do not want to stay here any longer than I have to and Im too pissed off to catch a bus full of drug addicts. So its chicken all the way.

One thing I do have something to smile about is work. I quit last Friday night, but forgot to tell anyone. A couple of people asked why I was taking my tools home so I passed them off saying I had to work on my bike. Then come Monday I get all these calls from work but I was to comfortable in front of the tv to answer. you cant interrupt a three hour marathon of mythbusters!  These arseholes wanted me to hang around while they gave everyone at work a half hour ‘training’ session on the welder. I was told it was just in case I wasn’t there, someone could do the welding. however as management have continually lied to me for the last 12 months I wasn’t going to wait round and find out that they would eventually get rid of me. I did feel it was funny that the management think it only takes half an hour to become a competent welder. It would explain why they thought I was expendable and that would explain why I stole everything that wasn’t bolted down!

Its Tuesday now, and there still calling me. Haha wankers!

I Hate You All!

June 15

surprise!

well i though it would have being a little while longer before i had some sort of effect, but i havent even left yet and i have something wrong!
i have a swollen purple lump on my wrist. all burning and stuff. asked one of the nurse what the hell it was and she just said to lie there while they got the doctor. being waiting for an hour now and no sign of the doctor, so thoght id come down and write maybe my last blog!
the nusre did mumble something that i didnt quite catch... something about necrosis of the epidermis... not sure what that ment but it doesnt soung good.
hopefully ill at least keep my hand. its my throtle hand for fuck sake! cant ride without that!!!!!!!!!!!
June 14

day 7

this is the end
beautiful friend
this is the end
my only friend, the end.
 
everything comes to an end i guess, until the next time that is. and itll be longer for sure! i cant belive how quick it went and how fast you can just shut off and be dictated to by a voice through a speaker. i wish i could live here. but i would miss my bike to much. so know im just sitting round, waiting. just a few more blood samples and thats it. except for the gerenal check up tomorrow morning. easy as.
long term effects i hear you ask. well noone knows yet, so i guess itll be a surprise for all of us......
 
i like surprises
June 13

day 6

got lots of holes in my arm, im sure im losing weight because they just dont feed us enough and im even bored with this headache/brain swelling/tumor. havent got much today except bed sores from lying down from being stabed and examined all day. got some well wicked brusied arms from all the injections. but had a loverly cheese and tomato pizza for lunch,and for the rest of the eveningi wasnt in bed (8 til 10) the playstation got its daily abuse.only one more full day to go and then its straight to the pub for dirty chicken and beer! mmmm i can almost taste it now.
June 12

day 5

today wasnt too bad, did very little other than play playstation, eat and sleep. still got the random headache/brain swelling. but its tomorrow thats going to be the shocker. all day in bed taking drugs having blood and urine samples taken every half hour and not being able to go anywere. constantly having to tel the nurses ' yes i still have a headache, yes it hurts, yes its still in the same place, yes i would take medication for it, yes im thinking of killing myself....' well maybe not the last bit, but its still boring. lucky im getting paid for this bordom.
well,back to the playsation.
June 11

day 4

even though i was woken again at 2:10am for more drugs im getting used to it. i get my breakfast stuck in my face at 6:10 then i go back to sleep til about 10:10. where i get more drugs and a blood test.then after an hour of sleep i get up and go jump on the playstation for a few hours til im called for lunch at 14:10. back to sleep for an hour or two til im woken for more drugs and vitals taken,then back to the playstation til im call for dinner at 20:10. back to the playstation til 24:00 where the security comes round and kicks everyone out of the games room and to bed. where i sit reading til 2:00 or til i pass out. easy life. but i dont think they have enough games to keep me ocuppied so this plan wont last long.which is more of a pain then it seems because thats the only thing that takes my mind of the contiuous headache i and most of the others have....
i wonder if thats my brain swelling or just shutting down...
June 10

day 3

the headache is still there. was woken rather unpleasently at 2am this moring to take more drugs! didnt like that. only just got to sleep because the fucking south african next to me was talking all night. wanker.
today isnt as bad as yesterday, only a few blood tests. just have to take drugs and wait for food. but the headache is still there....
 
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